It's a gorgeous night. I'm out at my parents' place, in the country. The heat of the day has passed. The stars are twinkling brightly above, in innumerable splendor that can only be seen when far from the light pollution of the city. In the distant north, a thunderstorm is raging away. It's far enough from us for the thunder to be inaudible, but Heavenly Father's light show is riveting. The clouds are flashing back and forth, competing for brilliance.

It's nights like this when I crave companionship. To throw sleeping bags out and lie, gazing at the stars together, marveling in the natural wonders... To cuddle and dream together, talking of hopes and visions of eternity...

Someday, maybe?

To the person who, very skeptically and scornfully, said, "YOU know what it's like to be rejected? When were you ever rejected?"...thank you! You did a pretty thorough job of rejecting me, yourself. You rejected me physically, mentally, and emotionally. When you were done with me and just walked away without a word or backward glance, you left behind a bruised, battered, emotional wreck. But, you didn't break me. I'm stronger than that. I'm better than that. I won't be back on my feet, in full fighting condition, right away, but I'm getting there...one step at a time. I will be stronger, better, happier. So, thank you for that.

Thank you for teaching me that I deserve better. I deserve someone who loves me with their whole heart. Someone who isn't so afraid to let me in that he pushes me completely away. Someone who keeps his promises to me. Someone who truly is a best friend. Someone who wants to be my companion, work together, grow together. Someone who cares what I need. Someone who sees our relationship as a top priority. Someone who truly wants me, the way I am, body, mind, and soul. When I find him, I will know that I deserve him....thanks to you.